Early this morning, while I slept, I had a dream or possibly a vision that my pet ratty girl Angel would join Chocolate Chip along with other rats and rodents, fat, happy and healthy.

It was nice until I awoke around 11 am to see Angel running around in her cage then seeing her standing up on her two's, arching her head up high making noises. Because of this, I got up quickly to take her downstairs to my mom to tell her what wa going on; and so it seemed obvious enough, Angel was making gagging gestures as if she were choking on something. Aparently a little work of a bit of CPR with the rubbing all over her body and trying to get her to drink water didn't work, so my mom and I brought her to the animal hosptial after mom gave the desk woman a call to give an apointment for Angel.

We were lucky because we got there fast because it was right down the road and the hospital was at its opening hours. When the doctor had a look at her while I discussed how it happened, he suggested that it could be possible that rats may feel as though they'd have a need to shelter themselves by running away from a certain area, or that they'd probably commit suicide if they knew they were going to die; this would probably be from the cause of phnemonia. In this case, Angel felt this way. Mom told the doctor that she was eating just fine when mom gave her bits of bannana with oatmeal this morning, but ended up choking when I awoke; this may've been because she was choking on a bannana piece, but really, I'm not completely sure.

So, I didn't want Angel to suffer any longer. As I saw her foot turning black-ish purple, I turned back to the memory of Chocolate Chip going through the same situation. So I decided that it was best to tell the doctor that it would be better to say our goodbyes to Angel before putting her out of her suffering in the most gentle and painless way. ( I won't go there )

Afterwards, I talked to my bf about it and took Angel home when everything was finished. ( Angel was in a small cardboard box when that happened. ) Now by tomorrow in the morning, I'm gonna' have to take care of everything by burrying her beside Chocolate Chip and saying my prayers again. Although it doesn't feel right, I let her go and let her angels take her away to heaven, the place of perfect paradise. I suppose the only thing I can do for her now is to keep her locked within my heart like I did with Cocy and pray. Everyone adored Chocy, and everyone loved Angel and fond her so cute. I will be posting a picture of her now, right after I post this song which is a tribute to how much I loved her and the tragedy of her death. At the same time though, I'm relieved that she's happy with Chocy in heaven now, but also can't believe that they're *both* gone now.

So here's the song for my little Angel...
There shall be a moment of silence for Angel, a strong survivor and a really adorable sweetheart....

>>>Goodbye To You Angel, My first pet rat.

Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

We the stars fall and I lie awake
Your my shooting star....



Well, getting over this will be very hard, but heh; I'll live I guess....
Have a good day, everyone. And thanks for looking through this, I really appriciate it that you saw this, but if you also commented.

Angel will always be remembered as well as Chocolate Chip. I LOVE YOU, ANGEL! YOU ARE AN ANGEL!!

~Dusk/Jublenarris the Seer.

Right here>> .

If anyone would like to see my Hannibal Lector/Cluny the Scourge pics, along with other stuff, come check it out!
I might upload the rest of my requests there as well.

Have a nice day!
Hope you lke what you see.

And a happy halloween to you all! Be sure to scare the holy crap out of everybody, and get lots and lots of treats for it in return! xD

To me, Halloween is one of my favorite holidays; and I'm really looking forward to dressing up as a vampire this year!

So a rotten, and wicked Halloween to one and all, and have plenty of fun "trick or treating"!
I know I will....

P.S. Anyone who'd wish to pull a prank or a scare is free to do so here on this journal entry It's Halloween after all!

Pictures, stories, links and screengrabs off of the Redwall series. xD

Nothing really interesting going on, but I am busy. To be honest, I have a real issue being a kind of person who mostly focuses on things that are opposite from what they actually are. I wish I could not do that!!!!!!!!!!!!! >.<

Ah well....

Well anyways, something to keep me bust online. xD; Posting new stuff on DA. Just wish I could subscribe; unfortunately, I don't have that kind of money. No worries, though. I'm askign absolutely nothing from anyone. I'm not like that.

Have a nice day!

Just wanted to remind those who are looking through here, that I won't be here tomorrow (Wednesday) online till' 3 pm. I'm leaving bright n' early for my BYU school-right on campus for speech testing. Sorry guys!

Believe me, I'd really hate to go. I'd rather kiss a smelly toilet seat for hours than not be here to see you guys and be with my bf.



So anyways, at least around 8 in the morning, an hour or two for my speech, and I'm headin' back home from which will begin and end with a LONG_ASS_DRIVE.... --And will be online at least around 3 pm.

Again, sorry for wasting your time...

Have a nice day!